Twirling emotions, unheard echoes
like the meandering river that screams out its pain.
The waves that crash against cracked rocks
the voices that lie, the sea that's violent
swallowing the bits that lay ashore.
Yesterday was beautiful with fresh breeze
today holds uncertain future and ugly greed.
Nothing is in our hands,
for we are puppets of a never ending show
what controls our doings, we curse with the deeds we sow.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
..DUDHSAGAR WATERFALLS..
A sudden burst of happiness
Triggered by coiled emotions
Compartmentalized whistles
Echoing through repeated dark, darker tunnels
In between the hazy, sunlit hills
My eyes saw through the grilled windows
Left and right
Amidst varied languages, dialect, smiles of different kinds
Voices with pitches low ad high
Squeaky and soft, husky and hoarse
Faces of various kinds,
Bodies of sizes a different
Vendors in maroon and blue
Asking or begging I struggle to understand
“bottle, bottle, cold water bottle”
Another dry parched throat yelling
“chai, chai, garam chai”
Employees on three day vacation
Rejoicing the free time, leisure
Clapping and snapping, discussing tales and jokes
Camera flash, videos in the making
In the blink of an eye, my eyes
Shift as the still feet
Wake up, their eyes jump to the left with screams of joy
…….my eyes turn
Fighting their way through the failing attempt one
Rushing back to my spot, to not
Fight but simply see what everyone is trying to
….my eyes to the most luck capture the beauty
Of the gushing, crystal clear, thin white strips
Flowing down with such turbulence….
..Spreading the wet joy
Over meters and heights
The cold breeze that sways us
The passing picture, frozen in my eyes
The sight to never forget
The experience to always remeber
Triggered by coiled emotions
Compartmentalized whistles
Echoing through repeated dark, darker tunnels
In between the hazy, sunlit hills
My eyes saw through the grilled windows
Left and right
Amidst varied languages, dialect, smiles of different kinds
Voices with pitches low ad high
Squeaky and soft, husky and hoarse
Faces of various kinds,
Bodies of sizes a different
Vendors in maroon and blue
Asking or begging I struggle to understand
“bottle, bottle, cold water bottle”
Another dry parched throat yelling
“chai, chai, garam chai”
Employees on three day vacation
Rejoicing the free time, leisure
Clapping and snapping, discussing tales and jokes
Camera flash, videos in the making
In the blink of an eye, my eyes
Shift as the still feet
Wake up, their eyes jump to the left with screams of joy
…….my eyes turn
Fighting their way through the failing attempt one
Rushing back to my spot, to not
Fight but simply see what everyone is trying to
….my eyes to the most luck capture the beauty
Of the gushing, crystal clear, thin white strips
Flowing down with such turbulence….
..Spreading the wet joy
Over meters and heights
The cold breeze that sways us
The passing picture, frozen in my eyes
The sight to never forget
The experience to always remeber
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
..HYPOCRITS..
They say, they speak
They form opinions
criticize you, judge you
On basis of what….they’re clueless!
Ignoring themselves and concentrating elsewhere.
One sight and you feel sick in your gut
Cause it does not make any sense
And has no meaning
Something’s are best left untouched
But they don’t leave one bit
They don’t leave you.
Trying hard not to speak, as it would be of no use…you do at times
Cause it’s hard, it’s difficult
To just hear all that’s irrelevant
They preach and expect you to follow
It’s beyond your capacity to understand
From the beginning to the end
It’s their game, an unfair game
Hypocrisy has taken over
And their rule exists
They form opinions
criticize you, judge you
On basis of what….they’re clueless!
Ignoring themselves and concentrating elsewhere.
One sight and you feel sick in your gut
Cause it does not make any sense
And has no meaning
Something’s are best left untouched
But they don’t leave one bit
They don’t leave you.
Trying hard not to speak, as it would be of no use…you do at times
Cause it’s hard, it’s difficult
To just hear all that’s irrelevant
They preach and expect you to follow
It’s beyond your capacity to understand
From the beginning to the end
It’s their game, an unfair game
Hypocrisy has taken over
And their rule exists
..BLACK FAITH..
This depression makes me sick
makes me want to clad myself full black to not even see my existence
I want to wake up to remember nothing
Its all blurry everything seems empty including him n me
him who wants to see me smile and me who gives me hope
The picture is clobbered for its a clash of thoughts and feelings creating a hushbush within me
calm yet hyper, two extremes striving to merge into one,yet refusing to accept each other
my heart melts making me feel soft
contradicting this is my steaming mind turning me brutal to me and all the other souls
how to define this is what i am trying to do
but with each progressing second it gets heavier on my whole body
turning me numb making me feel dumb cause i am clueless about my own feelingsits
all turning dark with each bark of my rushing thoughts
scary is what it sounds and appears
yet i am here sharing with the world for it consoles met hat i am not alone in this battle
it makes me light cause i have company while i fight against this constant rage
[the tilte is taken from the name of a boutique in Bombay called "Black Faith"..a friend told me about it and even got me a present...thanx krish:):)]
..DEAD SCARLETT..
I wished to write this when the whole media hype would vanish form the Scarlett Keeling's rape and death case.
The police, the government and the media have done their share (as they say) and now there are many many more just like this one going to happen.
It is stupid to categorise people and judge crime.It could be anyone, a hippy, a goth or any damn person on this planet. Justice should be the same for all. There are people who live diferently cause they refuse to conform themselves to the society's norms or for various other reasons but this doesnt give us the fellow people, the government and the police to judge them and treat them with cruelty.Yes fiona leaving scarlett in a nation compeltely alien to scarlett is wrong but whether shes had 5 or 100 husbands that doesnt matter.
It all belongs to the root of it that no matter what, whetehr democracy or kingdom rule, for women its always the latter because we can never live the way we want.(And i have freedom as one of the topics in philosophy..freedom to do what we want?)... what a pitty!
I mean a man's identity is never questioned when it comes to matters like these but in a snap a women's identity is questioned and shes scrutinized from each and every angle..
We all have the right to live the way we want. This all belongs to the ancient times when mughals use to rape the Indian women while they were ruling and the women were made to put a red tikka n wear mangalsutra by their family for the sole purpose that since a woman is married she wont be attacked. But today no woman is spared whether she arrives totally inebriated to a bar at 3 in the morning or whether shes fully clad and is just walking on a street even in the afternoon, shes picked up by the hungry men who loose there humanity for their mere lusty satisfaction.
According to the "people", this is a case of a foolish mother who now regrets her deeds, whos sleepless nights are filled with the phrase "if only" constantly ringing in her head. But it could be anyone one of us women? anyones wife,daughter?
Its very easy for others to blame women who expose cause they are inticing the men..
Whether we women intice men or not, whether we are naked or fully clothed we are vulnerable each and evry moment even if we choose not be. What about a 2 month old small baby girl whos father rapes her.Will you blame her for lying naked on the bed when she doesnt even know what world she has stepped in when shes only 2 months and will know years later what a bastard her father is or will you question the fuked up world we are in?
Everyone has made allegations against Fiona and Scarlett being drug addicts. The question here:if it isnt for these politicians then how the hell are drugs even available?
If we observe , "POLI" both police n politicians make each other.The police makes politicians by elcting them and the politicians make the police by loading them with money.Its a vicious cycle and all this has been going on for ages.
This is just ONE RAPE CASE!!
This case is just one among the infinite cases.
Instead of blaming and pointing fingers and forming our narrow opinions why don't we all do something to change our selves.Society expects a girl to be docile and well mannerd and a boy to be aggressive and the result is these cases.
My request to evreyone is that its not easy to face something drastic when something goes wrong with ourselves but when its others then its all a matter of judgement and opinions. Society's so called "norms" and "rules" are created by us. For the betterment of this world and us its high timewe stop succumbing to them.
[This is to all the men and women who who have accused Fiona of being a bad mother and Scarlet of being an estrayed teenager]
WOMEN: It's a shame on us for how you can even think fo blaming Fiona (imagine if it was your daughter even though she doesnt do drugs and does not indulge in sex)
MEN: Imagine being in a woman's shoes for one day,just one and you'll know that life from a man's living is not even an inch closer to a woman's living.
THIS IS TO ALL THE WOMEN WHO CONSTANTLY STRUGGLE EACH DAY AND STILL LIVE WITH A SMILE ON THEIR FACE!! AND TO YOUNG SCARLETT FOR SHE WAS TOO YOUNG TO REALISE!!
PEACE!
The police, the government and the media have done their share (as they say) and now there are many many more just like this one going to happen.
It is stupid to categorise people and judge crime.It could be anyone, a hippy, a goth or any damn person on this planet. Justice should be the same for all. There are people who live diferently cause they refuse to conform themselves to the society's norms or for various other reasons but this doesnt give us the fellow people, the government and the police to judge them and treat them with cruelty.Yes fiona leaving scarlett in a nation compeltely alien to scarlett is wrong but whether shes had 5 or 100 husbands that doesnt matter.
It all belongs to the root of it that no matter what, whetehr democracy or kingdom rule, for women its always the latter because we can never live the way we want.(And i have freedom as one of the topics in philosophy..freedom to do what we want?)... what a pitty!
I mean a man's identity is never questioned when it comes to matters like these but in a snap a women's identity is questioned and shes scrutinized from each and every angle..
We all have the right to live the way we want. This all belongs to the ancient times when mughals use to rape the Indian women while they were ruling and the women were made to put a red tikka n wear mangalsutra by their family for the sole purpose that since a woman is married she wont be attacked. But today no woman is spared whether she arrives totally inebriated to a bar at 3 in the morning or whether shes fully clad and is just walking on a street even in the afternoon, shes picked up by the hungry men who loose there humanity for their mere lusty satisfaction.
According to the "people", this is a case of a foolish mother who now regrets her deeds, whos sleepless nights are filled with the phrase "if only" constantly ringing in her head. But it could be anyone one of us women? anyones wife,daughter?
Its very easy for others to blame women who expose cause they are inticing the men..
Whether we women intice men or not, whether we are naked or fully clothed we are vulnerable each and evry moment even if we choose not be. What about a 2 month old small baby girl whos father rapes her.Will you blame her for lying naked on the bed when she doesnt even know what world she has stepped in when shes only 2 months and will know years later what a bastard her father is or will you question the fuked up world we are in?
Everyone has made allegations against Fiona and Scarlett being drug addicts. The question here:if it isnt for these politicians then how the hell are drugs even available?
If we observe , "POLI" both police n politicians make each other.The police makes politicians by elcting them and the politicians make the police by loading them with money.Its a vicious cycle and all this has been going on for ages.
This is just ONE RAPE CASE!!
This case is just one among the infinite cases.
Instead of blaming and pointing fingers and forming our narrow opinions why don't we all do something to change our selves.Society expects a girl to be docile and well mannerd and a boy to be aggressive and the result is these cases.
My request to evreyone is that its not easy to face something drastic when something goes wrong with ourselves but when its others then its all a matter of judgement and opinions. Society's so called "norms" and "rules" are created by us. For the betterment of this world and us its high timewe stop succumbing to them.
[This is to all the men and women who who have accused Fiona of being a bad mother and Scarlet of being an estrayed teenager]
WOMEN: It's a shame on us for how you can even think fo blaming Fiona (imagine if it was your daughter even though she doesnt do drugs and does not indulge in sex)
MEN: Imagine being in a woman's shoes for one day,just one and you'll know that life from a man's living is not even an inch closer to a woman's living.
THIS IS TO ALL THE WOMEN WHO CONSTANTLY STRUGGLE EACH DAY AND STILL LIVE WITH A SMILE ON THEIR FACE!! AND TO YOUNG SCARLETT FOR SHE WAS TOO YOUNG TO REALISE!!
PEACE!
Monday, July 23, 2007
..WANDERING PHOENIX..
my story isn't short
if i want i can go on and on
rebelious is who i am
and to question false beliefs
am the first to stand
like the stray dog crushed under a car
i'm begining to see my scars
i've turned to crack
i keep no track
like the sudden spasm of pain when your veins are entangled
i feel the same when am questioned
physically am weak, emotionally am wrecked
i've become phelgmatic
spurned a million times
but like 'phoenix'
I’v risen again
Everywhere I wander
No purpose no goal
Just me n my mind
Going places to places
if i want i can go on and on
rebelious is who i am
and to question false beliefs
am the first to stand
like the stray dog crushed under a car
i'm begining to see my scars
i've turned to crack
i keep no track
like the sudden spasm of pain when your veins are entangled
i feel the same when am questioned
physically am weak, emotionally am wrecked
i've become phelgmatic
spurned a million times
but like 'phoenix'
I’v risen again
Everywhere I wander
No purpose no goal
Just me n my mind
Going places to places
..RANDOM THOUGHTS..
high.....................been high ............... high on myslf.....
my imaginary wings n the pink i hair......with florecent tips....n orange feet.....neatly groomed.....the purple birds sitting next to me.....
while i make me another joint.....
there comes my pink dragon who will save me frum the ills of the world
n take me to the white wonderland
sway me away back into the time where there existed none of us
it was a trance
the chirping birds sang their songs like jimi played as though he was invisible
they flew with no objections
randomly carried along with the wind were the flowers n
trees
the leaves never fell from the branches , glued to their fellow bearer, where sun rose in harmony n the moon with pride
the sunrays scattered with freedom the waves crashed in peace
the sky looked colorful n happy the thought made me happy
as th breeze took me away
my feet sunk in sand my body felt light
my soul felt light my mind at ease my skin so soft
smile on my face
as i made me another joint
my imaginary wings n the pink i hair......with florecent tips....n orange feet.....neatly groomed.....the purple birds sitting next to me.....
while i make me another joint.....
there comes my pink dragon who will save me frum the ills of the world
n take me to the white wonderland
sway me away back into the time where there existed none of us
it was a trance
the chirping birds sang their songs like jimi played as though he was invisible
they flew with no objections
randomly carried along with the wind were the flowers n
trees
the leaves never fell from the branches , glued to their fellow bearer, where sun rose in harmony n the moon with pride
the sunrays scattered with freedom the waves crashed in peace
the sky looked colorful n happy the thought made me happy
as th breeze took me away
my feet sunk in sand my body felt light
my soul felt light my mind at ease my skin so soft
smile on my face
as i made me another joint
Sunday, July 01, 2007
..HOPE..
everyone wants to be loved cared appreciated hugged n kissed we all want to feel protected n be understood some recieve it some dont some feel it some dont it's hard for those who dont, to let go they put a smile on their face and rot from beneath cause they dont want the pitty from others but acception u dont have it neither do i u'v been wondering n as i type this am wodering too i cant figure it out maybe cause my mind isn't working or maybe cause its working way too much im confused
i cried n screamt but invain i dont want to think although am thinking i want to feel bt am numb i want to be strong bt am weak hw to move on i dont know it scares me i want to laugh bt i cant stop crying
n nw at this point i can typ no more cause am loosing out on words bt as i end this just one thing dt i know will remain mine is HOPE n am livin on itcause there's nutin els i cn live on
wt we want n dont want is upto usppl n things affect r life fr sure bt then hope is sumtin that noone cn take from anyone i learnt it th very very hard wayn from hopeless i turned to be hopeful.....................wishing i cn always n forever.......
i cried n screamt but invain i dont want to think although am thinking i want to feel bt am numb i want to be strong bt am weak hw to move on i dont know it scares me i want to laugh bt i cant stop crying
n nw at this point i can typ no more cause am loosing out on words bt as i end this just one thing dt i know will remain mine is HOPE n am livin on itcause there's nutin els i cn live on
wt we want n dont want is upto usppl n things affect r life fr sure bt then hope is sumtin that noone cn take from anyone i learnt it th very very hard wayn from hopeless i turned to be hopeful.....................wishing i cn always n forever.......
..LOVE..
From the time I met you
I’ve been on this constant high
You’re my drug
The drug that takes me away from all my sorrows
And brings a smile upon my face.
You’re someone I had not imagined to be with
I don’t know whether its destiny or fate
I feel lucky
Cause every time I am in your arms
I feel protected.
You make me so happy
You make me laugh
You make me feel beautiful
You give me desires
You give me hope
You’re my ecstasy!!
Like the flowers that blossom with the morning dew
My face glows with you’re one glance
I feel the adrenaline rush when I’m with you
And when you’re away I’m eager to be with you.
Your charm is mesmerizing
Your words take me into the fantasy world
Where everything is bright
Makes me want to stay there.
I am running out of words to describe my feelings
Cause as I said I’m on this constant high
I’m high on you
It’s difficult to hold even if I wish to
Cause
I’m falling in love with you
I’ve been on this constant high
You’re my drug
The drug that takes me away from all my sorrows
And brings a smile upon my face.
You’re someone I had not imagined to be with
I don’t know whether its destiny or fate
I feel lucky
Cause every time I am in your arms
I feel protected.
You make me so happy
You make me laugh
You make me feel beautiful
You give me desires
You give me hope
You’re my ecstasy!!
Like the flowers that blossom with the morning dew
My face glows with you’re one glance
I feel the adrenaline rush when I’m with you
And when you’re away I’m eager to be with you.
Your charm is mesmerizing
Your words take me into the fantasy world
Where everything is bright
Makes me want to stay there.
I am running out of words to describe my feelings
Cause as I said I’m on this constant high
I’m high on you
It’s difficult to hold even if I wish to
Cause
I’m falling in love with you
Thursday, June 07, 2007
..EMPTY..
Everything so weird
everything so still
everyone so same
there’s nothing that’s real
all that’s going is fake
cause everyone does it for sake
no helping hand with a smile,world’s just blind
they are walking like dead souls without any goals
it’s all so crowded with no one of trust
cause it’s for just
just for the sake
just to say
just to be
just to see
here’s what I have to say
open your eyes and see the world at bay
it’s insanity to say you love someone
cause you are not going to be the one
all the rules are broken everyone’s shaken
reality bites truth dies
nothing to say
nothing to show
nothing to see
nothing to see
..PAHELI..
Who you are no one knows
Where you live is unknown!
You’re called “god, the creator”
And you perform different roles in the name of Shiva, Jesus, Allah
And many unknown!
Pray to you, bow down to you and you’ll shower blessings
Is the belief followed by umpteen souls!
Anxious are they to see you
Although you’re identity is unknown!
You gave rise to prayers
And have so many for you in different ways!
You gave rise to religion
Which has created divisions
Cause they who call themselves religious
Want to protect you!
You’re appearance is visible in numerous ways
Yet you’re invisible!
They say you’re the only one…
Yet they have made you in multiple ways!
You’re a mystery that cannot be explored
Which is again a mystery
And
“God knows when you’ll be known”!
Friday, March 30, 2007
..EMBARRASSMENT..
The embarrassment you face, no one knows
Why always me? Is all you want to know.
Beneath, there’s something hidden,
It’s a wish, a wish to change
The hype created around spoken words
The thoughts thought and the speeches made
A rule declared
But….you feel its incongruity
Afraid your thoughts will not be heard
Try to speak, but when given a chance
You stay silent and eschew the questioning glances.
So, with no justification,
It’s not justified, or so they say
You become deterrent.
Your tendency to vacillate is the cause,
Or so you think
But it all disappears in a blink.
Their logic is a temptation, hard to resist,
And so, you give in.
Along the horizon, all’s vague.
Regret, contaminates your soul,
For an opportunity lost, to make your voice heard.
Yes, it’s complicated,
For all that appears is unthinkable,
Unreasonable and against the grain,
Yet acceptable….to most,
But in conducive to all.
However….you let go,
For this, to some, is the only truth
And it’s all here to stay.
Accepting it isn’t the solution
But a co-existence may,
Make the embarrassment easier to face.
Why always me? Is all you want to know.
Beneath, there’s something hidden,
It’s a wish, a wish to change
The hype created around spoken words
The thoughts thought and the speeches made
A rule declared
But….you feel its incongruity
Afraid your thoughts will not be heard
Try to speak, but when given a chance
You stay silent and eschew the questioning glances.
So, with no justification,
It’s not justified, or so they say
You become deterrent.
Your tendency to vacillate is the cause,
Or so you think
But it all disappears in a blink.
Their logic is a temptation, hard to resist,
And so, you give in.
Along the horizon, all’s vague.
Regret, contaminates your soul,
For an opportunity lost, to make your voice heard.
Yes, it’s complicated,
For all that appears is unthinkable,
Unreasonable and against the grain,
Yet acceptable….to most,
But in conducive to all.
However….you let go,
For this, to some, is the only truth
And it’s all here to stay.
Accepting it isn’t the solution
But a co-existence may,
Make the embarrassment easier to face.
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