..WANDERING PHOENIX..

my story isn't short
if i want i can go on and on
rebelious is who i am
and to question false beliefs
am the first to stand

like the stray dog crushed under a car
i'm begining to see my scars
i've turned to crack
i keep no track

like the sudden spasm of pain when your veins are entangled
i feel the same when am questioned
physically am weak, emotionally am wrecked
i've become phelgmatic


spurned a million times
but like 'phoenix'
I’v risen again
Everywhere I wander
No purpose no goal
Just me n my mind
Going places to places

..RANDOM THOUGHTS..

high.....................been high ............... high on myslf.....
my imaginary wings n the pink i hair......with florecent tips....n orange feet.....neatly groomed.....the purple birds sitting next to me.....
while i make me another joint.....
there comes my pink dragon who will save me frum the ills of the world
n take me to the white wonderland
sway me away back into the time where there existed none of us
it was a trance
the chirping birds sang their songs like jimi played as though he was invisible
they flew with no objections
randomly carried along with the wind were the flowers n
trees
the leaves never fell from the branches , glued to their fellow bearer, where sun rose in harmony n the moon with pride
the sunrays scattered with freedom the waves crashed in peace
the sky looked colorful n happy the thought made me happy
as th breeze took me away
my feet sunk in sand my body felt light
my soul felt light my mind at ease my skin so soft
smile on my face
as i made me another joint

..HOPE..

everyone wants to be loved cared appreciated hugged n kissed we all want to feel protected n be understood some recieve it some dont some feel it some dont it's hard for those who dont, to let go they put a smile on their face and rot from beneath cause they dont want the pitty from others but acception u dont have it neither do i u'v been wondering n as i type this am wodering too i cant figure it out maybe cause my mind isn't working or maybe cause its working way too much im confused
i cried n screamt but invain i dont want to think although am thinking i want to feel bt am numb i want to be strong bt am weak hw to move on i dont know it scares me i want to laugh bt i cant stop crying
n nw at this point i can typ no more cause am loosing out on words bt as i end this just one thing dt i know will remain mine is HOPE n am livin on itcause there's nutin els i cn live on
wt we want n dont want is upto usppl n things affect r life fr sure bt then hope is sumtin that noone cn take from anyone i learnt it th very very hard wayn from hopeless i turned to be hopeful.....................wishing i cn always n forever.......

..LOVE..

From the time I met you
I’ve been on this constant high
You’re my drug
The drug that takes me away from all my sorrows
And brings a smile upon my face.

You’re someone I had not imagined to be with
I don’t know whether its destiny or fate
I feel lucky
Cause every time I am in your arms
I feel protected.

You make me so happy
You make me laugh
You make me feel beautiful
You give me desires
You give me hope
You’re my ecstasy!!

Like the flowers that blossom with the morning dew
My face glows with you’re one glance
I feel the adrenaline rush when I’m with you
And when you’re away I’m eager to be with you.

Your charm is mesmerizing
Your words take me into the fantasy world
Where everything is bright
Makes me want to stay there.

I am running out of words to describe my feelings
Cause as I said I’m on this constant high
I’m high on you
It’s difficult to hold even if I wish to
Cause
I’m falling in love with you